Ok, so this thing is starting to become real.

Apparently a few months ago I told my boss that I wanted to quit my stable, well-paying dream job to do, well, I’m not really sure what.  And as it turns out, he didn’t forget.  In fact, my replacement started full-time last week, and come January it’s his show.

See, when I turned in my 6-month notice, January was this blurry notion of a time in the far off future.  Unlike some married-with-offspring friends of mine, my calendar doesn’t really extend much past next Tuesday.

(Aside: My friend Katy asked me the other day if I was free for dinner on February 11th.  Like, a million days from now. I started to tell her I had already booked a date with Judy Jetson, but instead responded “Yes. As long as you ask me again on February 5th.”)

Until this week, it was easy to ignore the upcoming expiration of my employment.  Things were really busy at work & I truly had no clue what January was going to look like.  It was still this vague idea of freedom.  Or homelessness.  I wasn’t sure where I would be or what I would be doing, so it was easy to gloss over the details and just tell myself that I’ll figure it out later.

But in the past several days, things have come a little more into focus.  I think I have a much better idea of where I’ll be living & how I’ll be spending the majority of my time.  I’ve lived there before.  I know what it’s like to wake up there.  I know how the coffee tastes.

I’ll give more details later, but for now, I’ll just say this…sometimes life has an awesome way of providing you the opportunities & people you need, exactly when you need them.  I’m very blessed to have generous friends & a supportive family…much more so than I deserve.

Yet, now that another small slice of my future has become more clear, it seems to have revealed a hundred other questions, concerns and fears.

I think somebody (Spiderman, maybe?) said “With great privilege comes great responsibility” or something like that.  More than once last week I woke up in the middle of the night freaked out about the next several months.  I think my biggest fear is that a few years from now, I’ll have wasted a huge opportunity & just be some 30-something guy with a busted dream.

Please don’t let me do that, ok?

Bo Cordle has been the Producer of Videoboard Operations at Auburn University since 2007. He will be leaving Auburn in Janurary to embark on a new adventure.

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